current state of the union: happy, unemployed, sunkissed, about to take the wheel on an island road trip, relaxed.
gave myself permission to be a bum for a while, and to abandon the living-in-van-paying-off-loans plan that had been freaking me out so badly. now i'm not sure what i'll end up doing, but i've given myself the freedom to take my time and have fun and though my financial situation is a total mess i don't feel the need to cry every day so yay that.
still confused, but that's just inevitable right now so i'm not worrying too much about it. hoping to do something fun in the fall/winter, maybe working on boats, maybe another ski resort, maybe... who knows. any suggestions are welcome.
or who knows? maybe after a few more weeks of sun i'll decide that i really am ready to settle in van for a bit. probably not, but never say never. point is, i've given myself permission to follow my whims, and that's so exciting. thank bejesus i have such a wonderful, supportive, understanding family.