:: Wednesday, February 15, 2006 ::

Wowza.

I came to the realization today that I don't want to live in a big city again.

I totally lost my shit to a homeless guy trying to sell me a bus transfer. I just raised my voice and said "take this thing away from me, i don't want it, take it, take it, take it!"

It was a little empowering, but also a little scary because I felt so out of control.

I used to think the city was cool, because you could walk around and not run into anyone you know. But I realized today that you still have to talk to people no matter where you go. The difference is that in a small town it's "hi, how are you?" and in a big city it's "spare some change? buy this bus transfer? buy my street newspaper? give me things?" In other words, things you have to say no to and feel guilty about. It's exhausting.

Blah.

:: Katy 10:01 p.m. [+] :: ::