:: Thursday, November 17, 2005 ::

tonight i hit a low of sorts.

i nearly destroyed something very expensive out of my own stupidity (and no, i don't want to get into what it was). i definitely had some bad karma coming my way.

i'm really worried. i can't stand the place that i'm in right now. i want out.

i want an income. i want my bills to go away. i want to stop feeling like a freaking bump on a log who does nothing but consume consume consume... read, watch movies, eat, read more, go shopping, talk on the phone, sleep. i want output... work, exercise, music-playing, snowboarding, more exercise.

i feel so... impotent and irresponsible. i'm very ready for this feeling to be gone for good.

stupid university.

stupid me.


~song~ Fiona Apple - Oh Sailor

:: Katy 2:13 a.m. [+] :: ::