:: Friday, July 08, 2005 ::

losing people is a weird experience - be it a break-up, a death, or whatever. because you don't lose them once. you lose them a million times.

you lose them when you hear a song you both liked. you lose them when you see their name in your phone book. you lose them at events they should have been at.

everyone knows this, so I won't go on. I was just thinking about it today, because "Auntie" falls under A in my cell phone. everytime i open the phone book, there she is.

I've been torn about this for a while now. on one hand, I liked that she was still there, even if she's not still here. on the other, it just served as a reminder that there would be no one on the end of the line. but some time has passed, and today seemed like the day, so I decided to delete my Auntie from my phone.

I know it's a bit silly, but I thought I was fine with it, until my phone asked me:

"are you sure you want to erase Auntie?"

Well, I thought, no. I'm not sure. In fact, I'm sure I don't.

But I knew that was a bit silly, so I selected "Yes."

And then my phone animated a little eraser scrubbing my screen empty.

And then I felt empty and I put the phone away.

:: Katy 5:25 p.m. [+] :: ::