:: Monday, June 20, 2005 ::

i've mentioned before that i have baby dreams from time to time... big tummy dreams or little baby dreams, either/or. i haven't had one in a while; the last one i had was fairly intense, probably the first one where i felt somewhat connected to the baby, woke up wondering where it was. fucked up.

last night beat that one by far. i had this very vivid and long dream that i had two, count them, two infants with my ex - a boy and a girl - and that i had given them up to him. let me tell you, that was some upsetting shit.

i have a lot of respect for women who are able to bring children into the world and realize that giving them to someone else is the best decision they can make for them. i'm not sure i would ever have the strength or selflessness to be able to do that.

*shudder* i still feel weird. blech.


~song~ Peter Salett - Heart of Mine

:: Katy 9:41 a.m. [+] :: ::