:: Thursday, May 19, 2005 ::

It is almost summer and yet it is rainy and grey. It is secret-keeping weather. I cuddle them close to me like warm blankets; they cover me up and protect me. No I won't tell you who I voted for... no you can't know what's going on with my boyfriend... no my bank account is my business thank you... and I say this as if people pry, but really it's just that I want to tell. I've always been good with other people's secrets but awful with my own. But lately I like keeping them.

I spent another week away, irresponsibly postponing summer school and attending memorials and teas and weddings. It was really refreshing, after a bit of a rocky go, to bear witness to some important events. So much love in this world. So many amazing people. Lots of shitty people and fighting too, but hey, take the bad with the good. I took a billion wedding photos and I'm crossing my fingers that they turn out. My lack of photography knowledge is frustrating enough to make me want to stop completely until I can take a course of some kind, but it was fun nonetheless. I just feel so comfortable behind a lens. If only my skill could reflect my passion.

One day.

It's nice to be back in my home though. I feel like I've been a nomad for the past six months... it's been amazing fun but I'm tired. I need a schedule, perhaps a little bit of normalcy. Schoolwork and exercise and a part-time job. I need to feel like I have a home for a little while.

And that's that.


~song~ peaceful household humming

:: Katy 2:19 a.m. [+] :: ::