:: Wednesday, January 15, 2003 ::

Leftovers

About two weeks back everyone tackled the issue of New Years resolutions. In true form, I've decided to tackle this issue late.

I think New Years resolutions are stupid. If there's something about your life you want to change, change it now. Why give yourself an artificial starting line? Why put so much pressure on it? If you really want to do something, you shouldn't need all that shit. Kaitlin also made a great point in her journal when she said "Is it all that bad that you need an itemised list of things that are wrong with you? What's right with you?"

However, two weeks into 2003, I can't help but feel like there is some significance to the idea of "New Years". Things ARE changing. School is great. I'm motivated and interested. My homework is always done. I have been getting out more, going to the beach more. I've taken up photography again, and picked up my guitar. And, probably most important, I've been getting at least 6 hours of sleep every night. In sum, I have, so far, achieved every resolution that I probably would have made if I didn't think it was such a stupid idea. Is it possible that I subconciously resolved without admitting it to myself?

That doesn't make sense to me, because every other time I've made a resolution I've broken it within a week. It's like making a resolution to eat less: all that does is make you think about food more, and then you want to eat all the time. Don't think about a pink elephant. Like that. So maybe I've just been able to do all of these things because I didn't pressure myself. Who knows?

I've decided that resolutions are impossible to keep if you choose to resolve to do something you probably don't REALLY want to do... meaning you want the outcome but you don't want to do the work to achieve it. So why is it that resolutions are always negative? Why are they always regarding something that is "wrong" about you? Maybe resoltions wouldn't be so damn hard to do if they were FUN. So, In accordance with my belief that you should change your life NOW if you want to change it, I've decided to say "fuck it" and make some resolutions anyway, right now:

1) I resolve to go out to the movies more, and swell myself with cinematic joy and refillable popcorn.
2) I resolve to consume chocolate, alcohol, and any illigal substance of my choosing without any associated feelings of guilt.
3) I resolve to never apologise for myself, my interests, my desires or my goals.
4) I resolve to explore the woods and beaches around campus, and quit hermiting in my room so much.
5) I resolve to snowboard my heart out until the snow melts.


listening: The Roots - Phrenology (check out "The Seed" - fantastic song)
reading: only textbooks for today, like a good little girl
watching: Back To The Future (again... soo good!)

:: Katy 9:18 a.m. [+] :: ::